Things Change
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Queensryche

My last post was down and negative on the whole issue of dating and relationships. Though it is still very trying and I think more than once that I should just dump this I can't. Crystal is the most amazing individual I have ever met. She has entered my life and got me to live again. She completes me.

Is it hard? Yes, Do I want to give up? At times. Is she worth it? Very much so. There are a lot of obstacles but I feel in my soul Crystal and I are gonna be together and at the end of the day that's what keeps me here.

Just meant to be alone
Mood:  down
Now Playing: TV

For 6 years I have dedicated my life to my kids as a single Dad since their Mom walked out on them and left me to raise them alone. I made a decision to not date and forgo my life for the betterment of my kids, tyhey were 10 and 6 at that time and I did not want outside women confusing them.

 6 years later I get a chance to run a bar and suddenly I'm around people, women and old interests arise. Then I meet Crystal, what a phenomenal woman!

That was 6 monthas ago and after 3 dates and 4 stand ups all I get is heart ache and disappointment. I think I liked being alone but now I feel lonliness that wasn't there before Crystal.

Wish I could change it back

Nothing going right
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: Some movie on Starz
Topic: Random Thoughts
Seems lately no matter what I do I'm being shit on. The IRS hits me for 5 year old taxes that I have paid, the town is picking on me when I just want to be left alone, Kyle is failing 6th grade, the club is falling apart and all I gotta say is what the fuck did I do? I JUST WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE... Is that asking too much? Lately it seems so

Friends??
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Haven

I find friends with agendas disingenous

 

Attraction
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: CSI on DVR
Topic: Random Thoughts
I find that attraction can cross time and space of allowed. Age, distance or obstacles really have no bearing if their is a mutual attraction. Hmmmm......

5 years later
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Football
Topic: Random Thoughts

Wow, just found an old bookmark for this blog I started back in 2005. Lots has happened since then. No one reads this becasue no one knows its here, quite surprised its still here but I guess everything out on the web lingers forever.

I may start posting again, I am no longer as politcal as I was, I've dropped out. It makes no difference what party is in control it's all bullshit. The crooks on wall street and K street run this country regardless of Party in charge. I've stopped voting, stopped reading political news, stopped caring cause it doesn't matter.

 Anyway....I have lots of random thoughts that I may share. Read if you want or don't I really have no care one way or another. That is probably my biggest character fault, I don't care about much....Wonder why???

Peace

Happy 4th
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Sublime
Just want to wish everyone a Happy 4th. I have nothing to really say today so all I will say is Happy 4th

This just plain sucks
Mood:  don't ask
Just found out that the mother of my children, my ex-wife someone who I was extremely close too spent 11 years with and all that bullshit is now a crack smoking heroin junkie. She has already OD once and I fear will not last the year. What do I tell our kids,Christ sakes they are 7 and 11. What a selfish bitch. I am so diappointed. Just one of a multitude of reasons I haven't posted in awhile. I see nothing changing and it is just so depressing. The Dumbocrats won't take anything this fall because they are too busy being incompetant and Asshole Rove will lie, cheat and fix whatever he can to stay in power since he lied his way out of an indictment. GOP will lose seats but will not lose control so I give up

Downfall of DeLay
Mood:  celebratory
Topic: GOP
Man how Karma can kick one in the ass. If anyone out there believes the head fascist in the House is not quitting because of the Abramhoff scandal I have a bridge for sale. Even in defeat these guys go down lying their assess off. GOPers can't stick to one message and when they look like they can't win they just up and quit. What about all that talk about principles, morality, doing the conservative mantra????All bullshit and they or I should say DeLay knows it. He got caught his ship is sinking and he's going down. Wonder how he'll spin his next indictment since he is Representative #2 in the Abramahoff scandal.

The country just got a little more Blue today, and that's a good thing. Enough of this Bullshit My God is the only God crap and get these cornballs out of Washington and get back to fixing this mess these assholes have spent a short 8 to 12 years creating. Don't know about you but I am tired of being embarrassed about my government.

History does repeat itself at least when an idiot is in charge
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Nothing
Topic: Bush
Was reading the L.A. Time and I do disdain publishing links this one is too good to pass up.

A 19th century critique of a 21st century president

200 years ago someone out there knew Jr. would be around and be as big of a fuck up as he has proven to be.